My Memorable Wedding & Year 2010

I think I will write about my wedding as my last post for Year 2010 rather than talking about a new resolution. FYI, I never achieve my 2 goals for 2010 which is to learn Japanese language and adobe photoshop :) hehe...

I just went back from another wedding reception at the Bride's side yesterday and it was actually fun and exciting. I believe it will be more fun if I don't have sore throat. Because of that, I cannot sing at all.. I enjoyed the dance as well though as the crowd were different compare to the other reception held at Le Meridien Hotel.

I am happy because everything went well. Thanks to God for the good weather, for making the preparation went smooth without rushing here and there. The wedding was simple. It was not the perfect one, but we did our best out of it. We enjoyed every moment of it from the pre-wedding photoshoot until the final reception. Some things happened out of our expectation, but it looked good in the end.

I am now a happy married guy. I will continue giving thanks to God for giving me more than what I asked. I think it is a good ending for year 2010. Not forgetting to all my family, relatives and friend who help to make this wedding a most memorable wedding for both of us. We love you all :)

As we are still in year 2010, me and my wife, Cecilia want to take this time to wish you all a Happy New Year 2011!

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Mr Rayns' Updates

Sighhh! Its been a looongg longgg time since my last visit/update on my own blog. I hardly find any time to post update nor to visit others blog too. There is only one reason for this... which is my work. For the past 3 months, it has been very challenging and difficult for me to do my work in my new company. A lot of issues have to be settled and yet i still struggling to learn and at the same time solving the issues.

I found it very difficult to make progress here because expectation is high from everybody. Little guidance is provided (compare to the previous company I worked before) and the process is much more complicated as it is hidden inside the machine. Sometime I just feel exhausted and thinking  about giving up. But deep inside me, I know that this is the right choice for me regardless of the suffering I have to endure.

It's really tough.... I lost control of my life.... It was the lowest point of my life ever. I was lucky my fiancee is here so I can share things with her. So, it helps a lot to keep me on track. When things like this happened, I cannot help myself from thinking, why I left my previous company in KL? I had a very comfortable life there. Learning is never been that easy for me. But here? its a total opposite!

But that was 2-3 months back. At this time of writing, I am glad because I stayed. I started to pick things. Everything started to make sense for me. I started to gain control over my work, which mean a total control of my life as well. I foresee that things is very easy here, as long as you know what you are doing and you know how to do it right.

All in all, I am looking forward to work here. Some ppl might see me as a dumb person... well, I have to accept that before but not forever. Sometime you have to be dumb in order to survive.... just make sure you know  ur direction and intention....The say goes as "Difficult times never last, but tough ppl do". This is such an inspiration for me to be tough, because I believe that difficult times is just temporary. 

Cukuplah sia berfalsafah... my last word is..."Tunggu lah kamurang"... I meant it in a good way...  dont get me wrong.

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The Training

Today is the most interesting day I ever have in my company.... Why? Because I attended one whole day training about Integrated Circuit and wafer fabrication processes. I love it because now everything seems to make sense for me. Before this, I was kinda confused about processes which they called as implant, diffusion, etching, litho bla bla bla... I don’t really know what is being discussed during the meeting as I failed to visualize the purpose of having these processes.

I went to the clean room for many times, and yet since it is a highly automated system over there, I can only see the ‘surface’ of it. The whole processes is confined into a big machine which made it almost impossible to see how the machine working on the wafers. The trainer is very experienced as she relates her explanation with things connected to daily life. So, it’s easy for us to understand.

Overall, it’s a very interesting topic, and now I know how to relate things like chip size and processing speed, which I have been wondering all this while. The same goes to terms like nano technology, duo core, Celeron etc and how exactly this very tiny chip is being developed from layer to layer until it becomes usable to their intended end product.

It’s very interesting!

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The Standard

I am a current customer for both Digi & Starhub. Being a customer for these two service provider, I tend to compare about which one is doing better. I definitely give my vote to Digi. In terms of customer service, Digi has been doing a very good and professional job - in terms of answering call, use of language; Digi is more friendly and lead the conversation towards solving the problem. Starhub on the other hand are lacking of these traits.

In terms of waiting time to get to talk to the customer service officer, Digi response is much faster compare to Starhub. In my experience, I can reach DG customer service in less than 2 minutes while it took around 8-23 minutes for Starhub to respond to their customer call. This is totally unacceptable! Digi has also been very flexible in terms of converting from postpaid to prepaid and vice versa, while that is not the case for the latter.

Needless to say more, I love DIGI.

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My Iphone 4

Last week there was a promotion for iphone sign up with corporate price held at my company. I decided to sign up for it as I think it is quite affordable here. As for the corporate rate, I chose a plan which includes 300 minutes talk time and a 12 GB data plan. I signed up for 2 years contract and will have to pay SGD 45/month for the current plan I have chosen. 

I am quite happy with my new iphone as I can get connected to the internet anytime I wish to. No more boredom while waiting inside the MRT or bus. I can always chat, FB'ing and read news to kill time.

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The Selfishness.

In Singapore, train is the main transportation other than bus and taxi. Anyhow due to the high-dense population, it is very rare to find an empty seat inside the train unless you board at the first station. It happened to me yesterday, after done my work out in Chevron House I was thinking about how to get a seat since it takes about 45 minutes for me to reach my destination. I just feel too tired and I don't think I want to stand along the way.

So, I decided to go to the last station, which is just one station away so I can grab my seat first. I am so relieved when everybody alighted at the last station. There were so many seats to be chosen and I was thinking which seat to be taken. Usually the first seat which is nearer to the exit/entrance is reserved for the needy (the elderly, pregnant women, adults with kids etc). I was thinking that if I choose those seats, I will have to give them up to these  peoples when they come in. 

So, I chose the middle one which is further from the exit/entrance because for what so ever reason, I don't want to give up my seat. Anyhow, It is still a norm for the people here to give their seat if the reserved one is fully occupied, especially to the elderly. Due to this, I closed my eyes and listen to my music because I don't want to see anyone who potentially needs the seat and have the guilt of not giving my seat to them.

As expected, the train is really packed along the way but I got to sit for the whole journey. Am I being selfish here? :).... I believed so. I feel bad.... and to make myself feel better I came up with my own reasoning;

" Everyone is well aware of the situation here and should expect the least to get any seat while boarding the train"

I believe everybody can understand why they have to stand in the train and it requires some extra effort to get a seat... as an example, go the the first station and the journey is all yours. :) hehehe

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EP

I just got my employment pass yesterday after been waiting for abt 2 weeks. It's important to have this card because it serves as our ID. Everything requires that as a proof of identification. It makes thing easier too... there is no need to bring my passport around anymore...  :)

After collecting my card, my frens n I went to the gym. Since I have several free 1 month pass, so I gave it to them so they can work out with me. One of them is quite experienced  gym-er.  He acted as my personal trainer. And yes, it was working. I can feel the effect and this morning when I wake up, the pain is all over my body... Thought of taking MC tomorrow, but I am still new. So have to bear with it.

I just bought a return ticket to Penang for the PBIM. It cost me about 800++ for two person. Now I am looking for an accommodation. Hope to get a cheaper one. It's 930 now... I better prepare myself to go to church as I might want to walk around in the afternoon.....

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16 September 2010

Today is Malaysia day. Today is the birth date of Malaysia. 31 August 1957 is the independence day for Malaya, but not for Sabah & Sarawak. These two states does not gained independence from Malaysia, but they join together to form Malaysia. Sabahan and Sarawakian must not cnfuse themself... there are a lot of news out there keep on mentioning that Sabah & Sarawak gained independence by joining Malaysia. I used to think like that for many years. And I was wrong.

When I look at my own state, I simply do not understand why my very own people have not change their mind. Why they do not look around them, what the are lacking of, what had been robbed from them by the federal government of Malaysia. Why they are too good until the extent of just accepting the fact and fate that they have enough.... They need no more... as long as they can feed themselves and their family...it is enough... what a complacent attitude.

Sabah and Sarawak are rich in resources, and yet their wealth is being taken and left to be among the most poorest states in Malaysia. Development in Sabah is among the slowest. I spent about 20 years of my life in Sabah and another 8 years in Peninsular. I do not need anybody to tell me what the difference between this two region. I experienced it myself.... about how fortunate those peoples living in the Peninsular... From infrastructure, transportation, job market etc.... they are far much better than us.... 

There are a lot of Sabahans and Sarawakians professional working in Peninsular because there were no jobs for them at their hometown. Most of the time, they have to choose between family and career. If they choose to be near with  family, they have to bear taking jobs with low salary and doing jobs that does not match their qualification. So many of they choose their career over family. It doesn't mean they ignore their family though. It's because they loved them, they decided to go and look for a better future.

Anyhow, I think we have not learn. Because the seeds of complacency is very much rooted in our life. Thats why, the BN government still happily and without  shame robbing us and raped our rights. We simply do not care. We are their fixed deposit maaaa..... 

What I am trying to say here is that we must tell them that we can choose and we will choose the best. We are not depending to any ruling party, but they depends on us. They must know what we want, and they must know the consequences if they do not give what is rightfully belong to us. And when I say "us" i mean the whole people of Sabah. Not for specific race as commonly practiced in the peninsular. That's why they need 1Malaysia. 

So remember...... we have the power to choose. Choose what is the best for our future. Give our children a better place to live :)

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New Life in Singapore

It's been about 2 weeks since I arrived in Singapore. I just got my internet broadband yesterday, so I can start blogging again. After all life is not bad over here, at least for me.. I heard a lots of unpleasant things prior of leaving... i.e too strict, no freedom, cannot do this, cannot do that, cost of living very high etc....

I am not in exception, but as usual, I don't allow my judgment to be overshadowed by those remarks.... I used to think about the suffering I will have to endure  without my car, about have to get up early in the morning, about having to start over to build my network again and all those sort of "What If" questions which popping out of my mind most of the time.

It was not easy for me to make this decision, but as usual, I prayed. Thanks God, after about 2 weeks over here, everything seems to be alright.... work wise, well, ppl seems to be able to accept me even not all of them. You know, some people are mentally unstable, how good or friendly you trying to be, they just ignore you or pretend like you does not exist. But, that's just a small matter. Most important thing now is to find my footing.

Living cost? I would say it's cheaper compare to Malaysia if we compare dollar to dollar. In KL my average 1 day meal expenses like Breakfast -RM 2.5 (canteen food), Lunch - RM5-8(Including drinks) and dinner easily about RM6-8. So 1 day meals can reach up to RM16 - 18/day. But in Singapore, my breakfast is only $0.8 (Free tea and coffee).... my lunch and dinner hardly exceed $5 respectively (normal hawker shop).. so all in all its about $8-10.

What abt other things? I would say general items here are relatively cheaper. (Based on my experience) Energizer battery (2pcs) is $1.6 compare to RM 4, my favorite choclate is $4.5 compare to RM 8.3, KFC snake plate is $6.7 compare to RM9, shower cream is $4 compare to RM7 etc... There are lots more items which I found cheaper here..... Beer? believe me its only around $2.3/can (tiger  n carls)... Even with this price, they claimed it still expensive.

The only thing that I found quite expensive here is the accommodation. I am renting a common room at $700/mth for couple. Earlier I thought it was reasonable, anyhow many of  friends of mine told me otherwise. So, I am waiting until everything is stable first before making the next move. Some more, the environment is quite comfortable here. So will decide later on whether wana move out or not.

Transportation is very convenient and systematic. I thought I will feel isolated without my car ready at hand, but no... there are ample access to buses and trains as well. You can go almost everywhere as the transportation is well connected. You only need to know which bus to take. For MRT, its quite straight forward.

Lastly, I am getting my internet broadband at $27/month for 2.0Mbps speed. Do you know how much we have to pay for half of the speed in Malaysia? Its about 100 plusss.... The highest speed available here is 7.2 Mbps with monthly subscription of $41....cheap and affordable right?

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Parasailing

Today my Fiancee and I went to Sutera Harbour Sea Quest for a Parasailing activity. Upon arrival, we were informed that we cannot do it because the weather was not good for such activity. We were a bit disappointing and just about to leave when the person in charge made an effort to ask his supervisor (I guess) whether they can accomodate one slot for us. Thank God, they were willing to give us a shot and we were good to go.

We boarded the boat, put our life jacket on, surrendered our watches, handphone and car key to be kept by the operators. The only thing that I didn't give is my wallet. I put it on my front pocket. Why? because I didnt remember how much money left inside.

I don't really know how to explain the feelings... it's better for you to go and try it yourself... I guess it's similar like flying by plane, only not surrounded by composite wall and with low speed... Those of you who interested to give it a try, hopefully the following info will help:

Watersport: Parasailing

Location: Sutera Harbour, Kota Kinabalu - Look for Sea Quest at Marina Club

Price: RM 180 (We were told that doing this in an adjacent island is much cheaper)

Contact: 6088 248006

Besides parasailing, there are others water sport they have to offer like Jet Ski, Banana Rides, Wake Boarding, Water Skiing, Ocean Kayak etc... Cheers...

P/S: If anything valuable dropped into the sea, there is no way you can find it back. So, don't bring unnecessary things together. Be as simple as possible...

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A day trip to SG

At 4am yesterday, we (my roomate and I) drove our way to Singapore. Reached JB check point around 8am, and drove along the causeway towards SG check point. After filling up the 'white card' we went to the VEP/Autopass counter for car registration and obtained the autopass card.

The registration was quite smooth, as it took less that 30mins for the whole process. After that, we continue our journey to this strange island. We have no idea where to go. Luckily I have my GPS with me. The traffic light system was confusing. But we managed to get through that even with so many illegal turning.

I made 5 appointments for the room viewing, but have shortlisted 2 of them as my top priority. At 10 am, we went to the first HDB unit. The HDB unit have 5 rooms in which 2 are empty.  The owner is a mid-aged lady whose husband is a Caucasian. She was nice and friendly. She did most of the talking, explaining about the background of the existing tenants, and everything about the whole units. I hardly ask questions.

She have 2 rooms available. One single room to be rented at SGD 500, and another much bigger room at the rate of SGD700. Both fully furnished, complete with aircon, 2 wardrobes, writing table and a TV set. The only thing that I have to provide on my own is  internet. 

The environment is quiet, as other tenants are not in the house most of the time.  Even though I like the bigger room and satisfied with the overall condition and environment, I decided to hold on first as I would like to see what other rooms look like. 

I proceeded to the second unit. This unit is a new HDB. The owner is a China Guy (PR). The room is new, fully furnished as well with writing table, a wardrobe and the bed set is impressive. Room size is a bit smaller compare to the first one. The living room was damn big. Its 3-4 times bigger compare to the latter. Anyhow, he is  renting out at SGD 800/mth. As I still wana view another units, I hold on and promise to get back

It would be very difficult for me to choose, if both room offered the same rent rate. Honestly, I would prefer the second unit in terms of design and style. Some more, it located closer to the MRT station. Anyhow in terms of overall convenience, I would prefer the first unit. 

I still have 3 units to go, but I was kinda tired and I feel that I already found what I really want. Soon after that, one of the agent called to inform me that his unit have already taken out. I checked on my list. Two more left; which is another agent and a guy living with his mother.

I decided to cancel my appointment with the agent to avoid paying the agent fee. Some more, he is not that attentive during the whole process. Maybe he got a lot more potential tenants who is willing to pay with higher rate. So I dropped him from my list. I got one to go. I tried to recall how this person suppose to be like. I tried to use my 'sixth sense' to get the overall picture of his unit and the environment as well :).... Then, I remembered the day before... during a phone call with him. I heard his mom shouting out of somewhere. Then he talked about ghost festival which made me uncomfortable.

So, I concluded, I should drop this option because:

1. It gonna be noisy. The mom must be very strict and there are many restrictions to follow

2. I might be not comfortable with some of the traditional practices.

Did I purposely creating this excuses? Well, I leave it to all readers to decide.

I returned to the first unit, told the mid-aged lady that I choose to rent her room. I paid the deposit immediately, get the receipt and closed the deal. I didn't expect it and a bit surprised when the owner told me to list out items that I would like them to buy for the room. It seems that everything is there... what more i need?

They said, I need to tell them what kind of mattress I would like to have? soft? with spring? firm type? In other words, they will provide everything new including the bed frame. They asked me to discuss with my fiancee about our preferences as they believe she will have more preferences than me. I was kinda surprised, they pay attention in such details. but, its a good thing by the way.

We managed to drive around the city after the viewings. Earlier we plan to stay overnight in a cheap hotel. But, we cannot find a parking... or probably there were parking but we did not know how to find it. We decided to go back to KL the very same day. This is my third time having a day return trip to Singapore... and the most tiring one.

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Men's Health 2010 Run Result (My result)

It was rainy evening. I woke up at 6.13 pm and rushed to shower. I did realized that I already late. Not to mentioned that I sent my running shirt to the laundry. After picked them up, we (Me n my roommate) left house around 7pm. Federal highway was slow moving. I took the emergency lane hoping that there were no police around. Some more it was raining.

Upon reaching the highway, I sped off up to 140km/hr (max). I am very proud of my kelisa .... its still doing a good job for me. Still young and kicking.. kekke ... So I arrived at Putrajaya around 740pm.... change everything inside the car and went straight to the starting point..... Luckily I managed to pee.

I felt good. Everything is nice as it wasn't raining in Putrajaya. As usual I put my music on... Once I passed the gantry point, I look at my watch... its 2-3 minutes pass 8pm.... So just assume I started at 8pm.... Route were smooth, sometimes a bit hilly... Scenery was great... I was astonished when I passed through the bridge. It was beautiful....

There were some point where I  felt tired, slight muscle cramp and pain di bawah perut. But thank God, it slowly disappear.  When I saw the distance marker (Another 3 km to go), I looked at my watch. It was 850pm. I remembered that it was what I trained myself for.... 20 minutes to complete 3km.. So, its a good estimate that in 20 minutes I will reach the finishing line. I try to run faster and faster....

Approximately 9.10 pm, I reached the finishing line. I got my cert without name printed on it. But, WHERE IS MY MEDAL??? I realized that even with 70 minutes to complete 12.3 Km, is not good enough to be on the Top 85. But never mind. This is my best time so far.... I am happy for it, even though I might not be able to maintain it in a long distance run.

THESE ARE WHAT I GOT

Pics are blur since my camera phone is not that good to capture picture during nite time.

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Mens Health Run 2010

Tomorrow I will be joining the Men's Health Run 2010 which will be held in Putrajaya. One of the main attraction of this event for me is this:

Every participant will receive a goodie bag* containing: • A Men’s Health bag • A Runner’s tee** from Reebok worth RM79 • Nature Valley® Crunchy Granola Bars • BIC® Easy Clic (Starter Kit) & BIC® 3 Shaver (pack of 2) worth RM10 • Johnson Fitness Sports Towel • 3 bottles of Clear Men 30ml Shampoo • 3 bottles of Clear Anti-Dandruff 30ml Shampoo • Naturale Choice Veggie Snackl • Juice Works Free Drink Voucher worth RM10 • Kenko 30mins Fish Spa Voucher worth RM38 • NT-Flam™ 5’s • Perskindol sachets & Guardian voucher worth RM5 off Perskindol range of products • TruDtox Tea Bag • 7-UP Revive 325ml • Bleu Mineral Water 600ml • True Fitness 14-Day Membership:

I got my runner's race pack yesterday. The T-shirt design by the way is kinda weird. I feel like a "Gaban" wearing that. Some more its thicker and heavier compare to PBIM Shirt. Luckily it's just 12.3 KM away. As relieving as it may sound, only the first 85 runners will receive qualifying medal.

So, the big question is... AM I GOING TO BE AMONG THE 85? Well, I don't know. But I set my target to complete in 70 minutes. Whether this 70 minutes/12.3 KM will qualify me for a medal, I don't know. I will try to push and maintained my speed at 11-12 km/hr. Even with this speed will takes me approximately an hour to the finishing line. 

Do you know at what speed I train myself on the treadmill? 10km/hr... and its not more that 20 minutes running as I want to spare some energy for weight lifting as well. Looking backwards, what makes me to start this kind of lifestyle? It's all due to my first ever blood test  result which shows my cholesterol level as high. 

I encourage you all my blog reader, to do everything in your power to keep yourself healthy. Prevention is better than cure and it's really true! It's far more important than money.... (Jangan sudah sakit baru telangap-langap mau cari pakar specialist)

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My Ongoing Dilemma

All this while, I thought I already decided that I am going to stay in SG while working there. But lately, the idea of staying in JB while working in SG crossed my mind as well. If I am to stay in SG, it will less hectic to move around especially in the morning and evening. Anyhow, the room rent is expensive. Don't talk about renting a whole house. What if I wana have kids? All these questions keep on lingering inside my mind.

If I am to stay in JB, of course I can rent a whole house on my own, which will be more convenient if I am to have  kid or kids... and of course I would like to have one or two or more depending on my financial capability. My future prediction is,  by September 2011, I will become a father already.. God willing :) (Jangan kamu ingat si Paul saja pandai menilik)....

One of the disadvantages that I have to endure is, I have to wake up very early every morning. Safety issues in JB as I read crime rate is high over there. But I guess, sometime things comes in package. You can't choose, but have to decide base on your priority.

What about my gym membership? I purposely upgrade my membership to VVIP so I can access every center around the world including SG. Currently there are about 6-8 centers available in SG but none in JB.

Due to this dilemma, I decided to observe, plan, and act... this is not a mere PDCA practiced by many companies as one of their improvement method... hehe... I think, I should go and stay in SG first.... maybe in 2-5 months? until i become fully familiarize and adapt with everything. After that only I decide whether staying in JB is more favorable or not.. I mean, in a big picture, for me, my wife and my anak anak.

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Moving again....

I finally tendered my resignation yesterday after weeks of thoughts and deep reflection and meditation.... haha... it was not that easy as much as it sound to be and it may not be pleasing and rationale to some ppl... but decision has to be made.

I will be going to Singapore by September as I received a job offer there. Now, I have started to look for a room somewhere nearby the company I am going to work to, and has shortlisted some of the potential owner. I will be going there somewhere in August to have a look and once finalized, I will be flying there right after returning from KK. 

It is a coincidence with my plan to go back to KK in August for I just realized that my passport is going to expire in Oct 2010. Renewal have to be done in KK if you want it immediately, otherwise you have to wait for weeks to do it here in Peninsular. I don't know what makes such difference, but that's what happening. I still remembered 5 years ago, when my company decided to send me to Japan for training, they have to send me back to KK just to get my passport done. Of course I am more than happy because I get a free ticket back to my lovely hometown.

All in all, I am looking forward for my new job, with a new company and environment. I don't know what to expect, but I want to be positive about everything :). We will know for sure in my next post 3-4 months from now.

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The Principle

  
I have number of principles. Principles that I believe I can hold onto. Principles that I talked with everyone especially with my friends and basically agreed on what it stand for or whatever reason it holds into. Anyhow, lately, I seem to walk away from one of it. It seems that I compromise on what I hold strong previously. I purposely loosening my grip on that matter, for some reasons that I see as an opportunity or chance of a lifetime that will make me regret if I don't take any appropriate action now.

So, between the principle of what is right for many people (and to some extent is right for me too), I decided to ignore anything about it, as I don't want any regret or guilt within myself to haunt me forever for not doing what is deemed to me as a right thing to do. Yes, I believe I should do what I think is the right thing to do, as I understand myself and my situation better than anyone else. So, I trust my own judgment, even if i did ask others' opinion along the way.

Making a big decision is not always an easy thing for me. Manoeuvring my own life sometime could be a mystery. It’s like going into a thick fog ahead as I do not know what will happen and what is in there.  Many question pop out of my mind. What if this happened... what if that happened and so on.... and I don’t really know the answer. The only reason that keeps me going is because I believe in God. I believe that things will never go wrong if I let him to take charge. And many times, it is not easy to simply put your faith like that. As a human, I still need some assurance; I still need to touch, to see, to get the result and etc...  to believe.

But if I don’t have faith, how do I want to keep moving?  I might just delayed things and leave myself strangled in confusion and hesitation.  In fact, I encountered this situation many times, especially when I reached the crossroads.

I know that my principle is right. It’s always right all the time, but it doesn’t mean that I have to stand by it all the time.  As a human, I think I should be more rational, and not to look things in 2 perspectives only. There are times in my life that either Yes or No is not gonna be an answer. There are times I should stay in the twilight area

I planned things out, but it doesn’t mean it will work that way.  I believe, God knows the best about it, and I believe that nobody is going to change my life for the better except me. So.... let’s rock and roll.... kekeekek

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Hey You

I don't understand why some people feels great in proving himself right by looking for others mistakes or weaknesses. Don't they have something better to be proud of? something which is genuinely from their own effort, talent, achievement, character etc??? hehe.. 

They might feel great about their own world, unfortunately they gain no respect from anybody. Hey you out there.... stop pretending to be smart. No matter how hard you try, you will only make yourself look ugly. Just be yourself, admit your own mistakes so you can improve.

Oh, some people even had gone too far. They wont let you to teach them and rather asking you to stop. Face your own fear, gringo :) The Fear of being defeated. Losers are much better that someone who fear to lose.

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Somehow, the grass is greener!

About 1.5 years back, when I were about to make a final decision about leaving my previous company in Shah Alam for a better opportunity, my ex-boss was the most skeptical and throwing lots of sarcastic words about my decision and what my future would be. One of his remarks was "Don't expect the grass to be greener the other side". The rest of it was trying to discourage me and to convince me that I was making a bad/unwise move in the midst of the economic downturn. (Refer here...)

Now, while many companies started to picking up, they offered VSS! So, the lesson is, trust yourself. Some ppl might look clever, sharing about sky-rocketing stuff pertaining economic, financial, recovery plan (Nike shape) etc.. bla bla, but to be able to predict what your future will be, is just ridiculous...... Just imagine what would happen to me if I blindly listened to the nonsense prediction? I am glad I didn't! 

P/S: It's ok. Ppl make mistake too :)

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KL Marathon 2010 Result

My official result is 02:18:19. (Click here to check your result)

My target time is 2 hrs and below. 

I might failed to achieve my target today, but I believe by November (PBIM) I will definitely get it. My PBIM 2010 target is:

If Full marathon: Less than 5 Hrs

If Half marathon: Less than 2 Hrs.

The END

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KL Marathon Run

Its been 4 days since the last time I hit the gym. Well, I purposely did that because I want to be prepared for my KL Marathon run which will be tomorrow. I've got my race pack and seems everything is fine with it. I've decided that for this time, I will run for the half category only . The distance is about 21 Km and my target finishing time is 2 Hours. I am not sure whether I can make it, but I will try. It simply means that I have to run 10km/hr consistently to achieve that target. Its kinda difficult, but it a challenge right?

I guess my girlfriend (or fiancee.. hehe) is waiting at the airport now boarding to KL. I am gonna pick her up at the LCCT  later on. Ooo gosh, I just received her sms telling me that her flight is delayed for 50 mins.... Airasia! Airasia!...... why lah u like this! Sigh, just forget abt that.

BTW, she will be running the same category with me. I dunno who gonna get to the finishing line first. I would like to assume that its me... but I cannot under estimate her capability.... she could do better than me. Who knows, my stamina deteriorate :)

Tomorrow, right after the marathon, we gonna look for our wedding ring. I don't understand actually how a guy in most of the tv or movie show can simply propose to his partner kneeling with a ring with him saying "Will you marry me?" How he knows the size?  Last time, I just said " Nnt bulan 12 kita tunang, pastu 1 taun lagi kita kawin k?" hehehe..... Nvm, every people has their own unique way of proposing bah gia....

THE END

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Denying of Facts

Many times.... I were right about many things. Even so, many times I chose to ignore my own ground, in the name of optimism, even if  there is a risk to bear when things turn out to be the other way. Many things have turn out to be the opposite of my expectation, and I have to bear the consequences as well. I am the one who should be blamed, and I deserved it for whatever I have decided. I am pretty sure, the worst has yet to come.

I should stand on my own foot. I should hold to the principle that says "When there is a chance of thing going wrong, it will go wrong". It does make me look ugly and weak and stupid. Sometime I am just angry with myself for losing control of things that I thought I am very good at.

I hope I learn from this, and won't make the same mistakes again in future....

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Invitation Card

When I was in KK last month, my fiancee and I visited one of the wedding shop in 1B. We want to have a look on some wedding invitation card to get some idea about designing our own. Out of many designs, we were attracted with one of the magazine-style kind of card. For us, it looks different and contemporary. So we decided to use that template and provide them with all the necessary info and material to start the designing.

One week later, they sent me their design concept. I was quite happy with it, but the more I look on it, I had a feeling that something is not right. First, they totally follow the original template, which is not suitable with the mood we are expecting to reflect from our pictures. Secondly, the choice of fonts is not contemporary :).... its kinda boring with all those flowerly thingy...not to mentioned the invitation style...ahh, they just following what they have in their catalogue.

So, I decided to make revision. I designed my own card in the excel file, and asked them to follow strictly... It took me 2 days to design it, and its definitely much better. I changed the pictures arrangement, I changed the invitation wordings and also the choice of font. After that I sent the second rev. to them to follow.

I received the second revision today. And to my disappointment, they failed to follow many important details that I asked them to follow. I start to feel uneasy. Why they take it easy? Probably they didnt meant too, but I just cannot help from thinking about how unprofessional they are in the job that the should be very well known of. I cant do anything, as I already paid my deposit.... So I make my third revision.

Hope they can make it right this time and luckily I still have plenty of time to go.

One of the many things I hate about bridal shop or wedding shop is that they are very reluctant about giving softcopy. I dont know why, probably they afraid ppl use their masterpiece and claimed it as their own... or maybe, since the existance of Facebook, they take this advantage to make more money. Even the softcopy of my invitation card is being watermark. Anyhow, I will make sure I get the high resolution complete softcopy of this later, since I am the one who design most of it. The idea is mine, they only put it on their template so they can print it out.

Hopefully they are aware of it. Its give and take policy maa.... U give me softcopy, u can take my design and use for ur business purpose... if you ever want to use it lah... kami taulah muka kami ni teda nilai nilai komersil....

THE END

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Leaving to KL

We (My fiancee n I) done our pre-weds photoshoot yesterday. It took us half day to for the indoor photoshoot, which means I have to find one suitable day maybe in July or Aug to go for the second photoshoot. This time, it would be for both indoor and outdoor. It went well, we are satisfied with the way it is conducted. In fact, we had fun doing it with the friendly photographer.

The preparation and decision making time was really short for us. We only have 3 days to shortlist which bridal house we would want to go, and we only managed to visit three of them. We have to decide on the following day, and go for the photo session before my leave ends which means yesterday. With all the rush, we don't know how is it look like yet. Hopefully it turns out well lah.

Today would be my last day here. I feel sad definitely, to have to leave my loved ones back in here. I could not find any better place than Sabah, although I dont like most of the drivers here. My life would be perfect if I can find one prospectful job here and to settle down with my loved ones around. But, this seems not going to happen in near time. Anyhow, I have faith that someday, I will be back here for good :)

I am going to pack up now, leaving my comfy airconditioned room..... Even though my house is being surrounded by jungle, but everything is complete. I have everything I need :).

THE END

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Food Tasting at Le Meridien Kota Kinabalu

I had done my food tasting today at Le Meridien Hotel, KK. I would say, I like the overall menu except for one vege dish which we decided to change to another menu because we felt that the taste was not that nice. All in all, we are satisfied the way it is carried out and presented.

Apart from the food tasting, our efficient and friendly wedding planner Jacqueline, went through with all the important lists and progress we are standing at the moment. She demonstrated us with her collection of theme color. Some of the color combination are really interesting. We get a clear idea of how the hall is going to be decorated, the arrangment of tables, stage, LCD etc.

I asked her opinion about how CONTEMPORARY Theme is all about. In her quick response, she said it has not been done before and explained the decoration right away. I was kind of like the idea though, because it is more simple, more flexibility and versatility. So, I asked her to prepare the deco according to the contemporary concept.

I think we have done most of the difficult things for our wedding preparation. We have done with the documentation as well as the pre-nuptial interview conducted by the Priest who will be presiding the wedding ceremony. We have done with the invitation card, hotel arrangement and 50% of the photoshoot. Hopefully I am right about this. If I am right, I can avoid all the hassles which caused chaos to many ppl.

THE END

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I am going home...

Yesss... Today is the day! I am going back to my lovely hometown. I am packing my stuff now. Will catch my flight in the afternoon. I feel happy and relieved. I am happy because I can go for a long holiday, enjoy the foods and meeting with my frens n family. It will be a wonderful time over there. I relieved because I am getting better from the Flu. I can't wait to see my fiancee too.

My post will be very short today as I need more time to pack up my things... hahaha. One thing for sure, I will be enjoying lots and lots of beers as I have several events to attend. Wedding events for sure, and some outings as well. So, who cares.... I am not working anyway :)

One nice facts I read from the magazine (Menhealth). We always think that beer gives us belly. But the fact is:

1. When  we drink alcohol, liver stop using fatty acids for  fuel and switches to using alcohol instead.

2. So, it leaves the fatty acids it should have been using to be stored in adipose tissue.

3. Eventually, beer belly is formed.

Thank you, and have a great day! (THE END)

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OFFICIAL RESULT: New Balance Pacesetters 15 KM Run

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My 28th Birthday

Before my birthday is over, I want to write something about it. Today, is my 28th Birthday...... Looking back at the past, many things have changed. I would say that I am on the right track about what I want to achieve and what I want to become. The latter is difficult to be defined, because only me can understand what it is all about.

Time flies really fast. It flies really fast until at some point, I didnt realized that somehow I was left out from the things that I suppose to accomplish according to my plan. Anyway, thanks to God, everything still go smoothly until now. Life is full of challenges, difficulties, crossroads, uncertainties etc. But we must not run from it, rather than embrace life as a gift from God. Life is not easy. I failed for many times. There were times when I feel like to quit..... but I believe, I should only rest & take a break, but must not quit.

God willing, 28 seems to be the last number of me being a bachelor. After that, I will be known as a married man. Some people say, its "GAME OVER". It could be true, but for me not 100% true.... Its more on how you as a couple fit each other. Of course there is no such thing as Mr Right or Ms Right....no such thing as u meant for me, and i meant for you... Its more on how compromise is being stressed in a life as a couple.

Personally, I am looking forward for my wedding day..... and I am looking forward to live with the person I have chosen. I have thousand reasons to choose my girlfriend as a love of my life :) (Jangan kau kembang sana)

I got a beautiful Birthday wish from my fiancee... this is what she said:

If we lit a bday candle 4 evry wise words u’ve spoken, evry caring deed u’ve done & evry single life u’ve touchd, the room wil b filld wit 'RAYdiant' glows..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my Fiance!

I wish u happiness & hope ur aspirations wil bcome reality.. N I want 2 b there 4 u. I love u so much! God bless u..

tell ...me what ribbon colour u like.. i'll tie it arnd me :p

 

Its simple, yet very meaningful for me. Its the best birthday wishes I ever had so far...... So, I framed it on my Blog....

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KL Marathon 2010

It's only 38 days from now and I don't know what the hell I am thinking at the moment.... I feel like to withdraw myself from the full marathon category and just re-register for the half marathon category. I think about the hot wheather, and many of my friends whom will take for the half category only. I was thinking, can I stand running under the hot sun? will I make it? dunno... but as at the time of writing, I am more comfortable to go for the half-marathon.

This is what I called, mood swing! Infact I just sent an email asking about any posibility of changing category. We will see what the reply would be by tomorrow.

There is one laundry shop located just over the road near the condo I am staying. I send my clothes there frequently and I am quite satisfied with their service so far. But what makes me irritated is, the old eyebrow-less woman is so damn like shit in terms of customer service. Just imagine the face is like asshole everytime I look at her. She never say a word through the whole transaction. Its like we already have understanding of what should be done which is,

1. I come, put my clothes on the table

2. She take it, put on weighing machine

3. She write the bill and ask me to sign

4. I pay money, take the receipt and leave.

Well, I dont mind for I am not interested to talk with her though. But, recently, and just recently she have a thought that she is a beautiful queen. Instead of doing item no 2 above, she expect me to do it myself. I was so pissed off when she pretended like nothing happened and just left the clothes on the table, expect me to put it on my own.

I was ready to burst out and just wait for a right time to let my curse go. So I didnt do anything.... I know, without doing item no 2, she wont be able to write a bill. So, I just waited and do nothing. At last, she throw a black face at me (in fact her face is already like shit) and just drag the clothes to the weighing machine.

Haihh.... if not because of the location is near and service is quite ok... I wont go to this laundry anymore. I just hate to see her face every week. Never mind, I will keep on going there until I can I can find a reason to say my words for her. After that, I will go and find another laundry shop... hehehe

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New Balance Pacesetters 15 KM Run

I woke up at 5:00 am today and get myself ready for the run. I was kinda lazy and thought like... "ahh what is this" as I had in in mind that this run will be easy for me. I even had a couple of beers the night before with my friend, Alex.

The event started sharp at 7.15 am for Men's Open Category. I ran with peace of mind, listening to my musics. Just about 20 minutes running, I started to feel pain all over my leg... I was thinking, what the heck with this!! Its just 20 minutes or 2-3KM away which I were not so sure and this is happening to me? I was then try to recall what had gone wrong.

I realized that first, I did not maintain my speed evenly. I had been going very fast from the starting point.... I remember how I started for the Penang Bridge Marathon which is very contrary to this. I tried slowing down by hope the pain will go away, but it won't. I came to realized then, that the route was hilly. Thing become the most difficult for me when running uphill. I cursed for many times. My leg pain was almost unbearable. I was thinking that I am going to fail. Can you imagine, how embarrasing is that? My arrogance was paid off! Kotoh!

I prayed to God, so that the pain will go away. Well, the pain was still there, until I almost fell to the ground as I did not watch my steps properly. I was shocked, peoples were looking at me, but I didn't hear whatever they said as I was on my MP3 and I didn't bother.... hahaha... When that happened, I felt my adrenaline 'rushing/flowing' all over my body and I became super alerted. I didn't realize that the pain suddenly gone. I smiled when I thought of my prayer earlier. "Ohh... thats the way You do it? Thanks by the way :)"... hahaha....

I continued running until the 8th KM.... I checked my watch and it was already 8:00 am. Gosh, 7 KM to go.... and by saying that, my route went uphill again.... There were times, when I just want to give up. I stopped, and thinking of walking only. But I remember, that by stopping will only make me weak and de-motivated. I forced myself to run....  and took a deep breath simultaneously.

I reached the finish line around 8:47 am... and I guess my unofficial time is 1 Hr 32 Mins.... we'll wait until the final list come out. I proceed to get my finisher medal, and straight away trying to cool down myself. I was not feel any excitement and joy as what I experienced in Penang before, but I was thankful to God because I managed to complete it within the qualifying time. Thanks God. :)

I am gonna check the Standard Chatered Marathon route after this. If they use the same hilly route as this, I am gonna back off and re-register myself only for the half-marathon category. I know I will never do it for hilly route.

I think, it is very important to buy one pouch to get my things intact. It was really troublesome to run while holding your key, and wondering your wallet, camera or handphone is safe inside your car.... Those of you who planned to to join such event like this, pls bring all necessary items together to sustain you during the whole run. You will get tired, you will have muscle pain, cramped etc... so bring some medication and hi-energy bars... haha...

Good luck and All the best!!

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3rd Day

Hahaha. I thought I will be doing something useful today. But, the fact is, I have to sent my laptop to the IT dept as they need to re-image it according to my profile and as a main user. So, most probably I will not get a new one. Never mind. It's nt my priority though.

Without a laptop, I had to initiate my own effort to learn. I asked some explanation to my colleague about the template which they called Line Balance Chart. Actually, it is simple! Very simple and in my opinion is very practical compare to the rocket science Gentain Table, which I learnt from the Japs company. Of couse Gentain Table is more comprenhensive, but I guess it suit with the Japs only. We, Malaysian not that detailed enough when we talk about Production Planning. So, it doesn't work.

I get to know from another friend that I will be only doing my real job on the 3rd week. This is because I have to follow the standard as a new comer. Need to go for orientation and so forth, need to prepare profile for accessing some applications etc.

Tomorrow will be the last working day for this week as Friday is a replacement holiday for Labour day. So, I guess I will rest, clean my room and go to the gym. I must prepare myself for the KL MArathon in Jun. My target is to finished 42 KM in less than 5 hrs. Be it 4 hrs 59 mins, I will be more than grateful. So, intense training is required. I dunno whether I should challenge myself for another Penang Bridge Marathon... I have not decided yet.

I have a mixed feeling. I dont know whether my boss will approve my planned leave in May. I need to take 5 days off. Be it unpaid leave or advance leave... But I have to take it. Come next week, I will be informing my boss about it. Finger crossed. I hope it will be approved. I need it to be approved..... even though I am nt entitle for it.

So far so good!

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(The font I am using called Trebuchet. So funny :) )

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2nd Day

Since I have some spare time to write, so I will be writing about my second day at work. I got my log on infor, which means I can access email & internet. Apart from that, I have the opportunity to study some of the work-related application, but I have not fully understand the principal behind. Its all about capacity planning.

My colleague brought me into the production and explained to me about the process flow. I kind of blurr a bit since this is totally new to me. Anyhow, since I got internet access, I managed to google some info regarding the processes, and thank God, I am able to understand some of the mechanism involved. Tomorrow will be a different day for me as I already know what I will be doing the whole day. I need to break the formula used in the template. I need to understand how it is derived and find any logical corelation of  the arrangement of data.

I am required to submit a report after 3 months. It is considered as my on the job training if I am not mistaken... so far I've found 2 sabahans working there. But, I seldom meet them because they are in different department. I found out that the food inside the canteen was not bad. Many choices and look delicious. But, it's too early to judge. My other colleagues think they are boring. So they chose to eat outside. As for me, I still prefer eating outside. Cheap and I can get more rest during lunch hour.

Today is my last free session with my personal trainer. I found out that he is good and experienced. I never feel so much pain for exercising before, but during the 1 hour session, I felt like all my bones are breaking.... kkekeke. But that is what exercising is all about right? No pain no gain. I didnt continue having a personal trainer as I cannot commit to the cost they charged. Its good to have one, but I guess I must depend on my own. Internet kan ada.

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My First Day

My first day working today was quite boring. As a newcomer, I expected this to happen. But what made it worse, my laptop is not arrived yet. It will take another week according to the department's clerk as she is the one who responsible to purchase it.

My boss who interviewed me was not around. He will only be in by next week. So I might be fully functioning only by next week... anyhow, as usual this is a time for me to learn more abt the people, about the place. There must be a reason why I am so free especially this week. I dunno what waiting next week.

Tomorrow  I will request my colleague to bring me into the production area.. if she got time. I need to familiarize myself with the process. I think the people here are friendly compare to my previous company. They share things. I dont know up to what extent they are willing to share their knowledges, but i take it as a good sign lah. Some more, I didnt expect anything like this at the first place.

At the end of the day, it happened to me that I bumped in with my friends. Two of them. I have not been in touch with them for many years... and they are here! How small the world is. One of them used to be my enemy in my previous company. So all in all, I made 7 new friends today.

My body is still aching. I cancel my second session with my trainer tonight. I said I cannot bear the pain. He teased me by saying I seldom exercising.. But I say I will continue tomorrow. Anyhow since I am paying 159/mth... I will just go for a 10 mins jogging and 50 mins in the sauna. Must make full use of it.

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GYM

I decided to sign up for a gym membership. I need to continue exercising for my own health (My cholesterol level is slightly high), for my marathon preparation, stay in a good shape and actually because I like it. I think exercising has helped me in many ways ie; reducing stress, be more focus, feels good, self satisfaction... 

I started my first session today, and now my body is all aching. Nevertheless, I am glad, because I can work out without worrying about the weather, polluted air etc, since it is done in a controlled environment. I have 2 free sessions with personal trainer, and he is showing me the right way of using the equipments, and proper workout method. After that, I will be all on my own.

I signed up for a 2 years contract. I dont know whether I am going to stay here for 2 years, but as far as i seen, there is a big chance of that to happen. I guess I have to make fully use of it since I am paying RM 160 monthly. Hope to see some mucles too... not a bulky one, just a lean type... bukan sia mau jadi body builder pun.

Tomorrow will be my first working day in my new company. I have no feeling nor expectation. This is very different compare with my previous employers (Two to be exact), where I found myself nervous and felt uncomfortable meeting peoples around. Things like having frens, capable of doing job, good bos etc.. did not bother me much as it did on me last time. So wish me luck... :)

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A New Week

I've arrived safely in KL last Sunday. Journey was quite fun and good as two friends of mine (Frankie & Clarice) were together with me. We spent a night together before both of them left to Penang. Before that, we managed to meet up for a light drink with Bran, Guz & family, and Alex.

Eventhough tired, but I was happy because I did not feel alone travelling from Penang to KL. I used to drive alone for many times.... And I tell you, It was really tiring to have to drive alone all by yourself. So, my gratitude goes to them! (Jan melebi minta puji ahh.. kasi makan kamu taie...kakaka)

For the first 2 days here, I felt lonely [Instead of horny :)]... I cant explained what I had missed behind. Of course I forgot a few things which is my vacuum cleaner, my engine oil which I purposely left behind and only came to realize that I should bring it back here. (Mahal bah tuh barang .. hehe)... But i felt lonely. Was it because of my friends leaving me? Was it because of the new evnironment again? or was it due to my free time? I dont really know.

I used to think that everything will be easy for me. I used to think that I belonged to be here and has made a right choice. But, during last 2 days, many things crossed over my mind. I realized that I was so attached to my daily routine in Penang. Jogging after work, cooking for dinner, more privacy, out with frens every friday nights etc.... With all these things flashed back into my mind.... the thought of me, making a wrong decision haunting me back.

Anyhow, I knew and I am very sure deep inside me that I was all right. My decision is the best for now and for my future. I just need to adapt again. I just need to adjust myself being away from the comfort thingy, which I guess I will no longer enjoyed like when I was in Penang. Some more, my decision was not solely on my own jurisdiction. I prayed, I pray hard for guidance and I have faith on the path that I have chosen to go.

Now, I have no idea of what is waiting for me in my new employment. I dont know what to expect. But as I always do, expect the least and just go for it and survive. Being observant and make the right move is always the key.

Now, I am back. Sitting in the room I used to sit, looking away the very same view from my window. Even though evrything remain the same, but I am not the same person  who used sit here a year ago. I am expecting a lot more things in life. And I am not running away from it.

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