Friendship

The word "Friendship" has a very deep meaning for me. I have many friends everywhere, which most of  them are so called a Facebook friends. But the one I called a closed one are just a few, to be exact only 3 of them for the past 29 years I have been living in this world :).

There are many differences between my common friends and a true friends. I can be completely honest, true and trust my close friends. I don't bother sharing my weaknesses or anything personal with them because they don't judge, but giving support and opinions, and in the end, they wanted the best for me.

With my closed friends, I don't expect them to return in favor whatever things I have done for them. It's a pure mutual understanding and acceptance that I tend to treat them better than others. Apart from that, I don't get hurt easily for some mistakes or wrongdoing committed by my best friends compare to the others.

What differ my best friends and the other acquaintances is that I have no emotional feeling for the latter. But I do have emotional feeling for my best friends. When I left my best friends for a reason, instead of not wanting me to go, the chose to support me because they wanted the best for me. And its exactly the same with me, to let my best friend go without showing any sadness and giving gestures that I will be ok without them around.

But as soon as I realized that they are no longer around, I felt a strong sense of loneliness and emptiness and boredom. Sometimes I just wondering, why I keep on losing  my best friends. But if this is what life is going to give me, I have to accept it and keep moving on. I just hope one day I can meet them and have them around me together with my family, if that's not too demanding :)

Till then, I just hope the best for them, and will surely remember them to my prayer.

(Jadi bertuah betul urg yg jadi kawan baik sia, sebab sia inda lupa pray untuk durang every Sunday mass regardless of their belief) - Pengajarannya, jadilah kawan baik sia.... hehe