My Dad

January'11 seems to be a tough one for me and my family. My dad has been hospitalized since last Tuesday due to Pneumonia. We pray so that his body will respond well with the treatment and so that he will recover soon. I never thought that he will ever have this illness because he seldom falling sick. It started with a normal flu, but he ignored it. His conditioned worsened and he started to have continuous fever and refused food. He became very weak and hardly talk or responds verbally. 

We decided to have him admitted to the hospital and thanks to God, his condition is improving but still need to undergo several tests and treatment since he still have fever. The doctor said that he need to change his antibiotic to specifically kill the bacteria which has infected his blood/lung. Our prayer be always with him and my family even though me and wife are not there due to distance and working commitment.

In the meantime, I am happy and grateful to God for answering my prayer, so that my dad will be baptized one day. Yesterday at 1pm, he was baptized and was given a christian name as Abel. May God bless all of us and protect us from any evil.

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My Ear

I still remember my first ear infection happened about 2 years ago when I was still working in KL. I went to SJMC to get it fixed by a mid-aged doctor, whom I think is a good one because he knew that I had a similar infection during my childhood. He explained properly what is wrong with my ear, about how abnormal my eardrum look like (slightly pushed down or retracted) and about a possible infection in future. (This cost me almost RM 300)

After that, I had a slight hearing loss due to flu. But after fully recovered, I still experienced slight block in my left ear. I went back to the same doctor, and he suggested me to perform audiology test. The test came out to be OK.. just a mild hearing loss. He checked my ear, and both was in a good condition. Of course my ear drum still stay the same lah (Retracted). (This cost me RM 200++)

Then the third infection happened when I was in Penang. My friend (Frankie) suggested me to go to Lam Wah Ee Hospital but I end up went to Pantai Hospital. (My reason was because I have no confident with with Lam Wah Ee). This is just my personal opinion though. If you asked me why I have no confidence, I will say it because of the webpage and the hospital name itself which is not appealing. So, I linked them to their expertise. haha... I know I made a poor judgement and unfair, but that is how I look at things at the first place. I hope nobody will come after to sue me. You can think which one is better for you... The choice is all yours.

Back to Pantai Hospital, the ENT consultant mentioned about my blocked ear was due to excessive wax. There was no infection at all. Just waxes. I asked her (even though I knew it) why such thing can happened? She said I had an abnormal ear drum. My ear will easily collecting dirt and the same problem might happen again in future. I told her that when I blow my nose, sometimes I can feel an air flow coming out of my ear. I think she laughed. So, I left and it feels better except the buzzing sound (Tinnitus) still continues. But it happened once in a while only. (This cost me around RM150)

Then the problem came up again right after the Penang Bridge Marathon last year. I guess the water had got into my ears and stuck in there as it was raining heavily during the marathon. It started to produce foul-smell and slight pain around my neck area and head. I thought that it must be due to excessive wax and infection. I almost sure. Then I went to see the ENT in Damai Specialist, KK.

The consultant was not friendly. He asked me to turn my chair left and right to get my ear checked. After that he asked me to lie down and use his 'table light' to check my ear (It looks like a reading light though so dont blame me). What the heck, I thought they should have their special chair to perform the procedures. What is the purpose of paying so damn expensive if they don't have the best equipment at hand? I told him my problematic ear is at the left side and could be due to excessive wax... He said, ohh well, ur right ear even worse!

I try to share with him my past experience with other ENTs and what the problem might be alike... and he was giving me a smile like "Oh really? dont bluff me u r not a doctor".... then straight away asking me to perform audiology check after he cleans up the waxes. I asked him whether any sign of infection or not, and he said no.... he was very sure of his own opinion and not asking me what had I feel about it? The pain and foul-smell was still there when I left the clinic. (This has cost me RM 140)

I went for the audiology test and as I expected, the result shows that I have a mild hearing lost. So, thank you for wasting my RM50 to do this test. So, I started to think that this ENT was wrong about me. So I wanted a second opinion. I went to the other ENT consultant at SMC a few days later.

This ENT seems good. He talked a lot, gave good information about what have went wrong. Checked and snap a photo to compare my ear drum with a normal one. Checked my Eustachian tube which he concluded to be ok. He advised me that I should do regular check up to prevent the problem from happening again. He said my condition now does not require operation. It's called Adhesive Otitis Media with retraction pocket and told me that this could lead to Cholesteatoma which will definitly need a surgery if not being taking care off well.

I told him that my ear is still painful and somehow have yellow discharge especially early in the morning. He said, "Oh it might be due to flu just continue the flu medication you are having right now. There was no discharge". I am relieved but still puzzled why my ear was still painful. But, I just wana live with it since these two ENTs already confirmed that nothing serious with my ear. I took my own effort to buy an antibiotic eardrop and put it inside my ear. Surprisingly, the foul-smelly thing has gone. (They charge me RM 220)

After arriving in Singapore, my flu has completely recovered. But then I still feel slight discomfort of my ear and the yellow discharge still continues especially every morning. So last Thursday I went to see my company doctor and he said there is a chronic infection in my ear and referred me to the ENT at Tan Tock Seng medical center and locked the appointment date on Thursday this week. 

Then the worst part came. While enjoying weekend drink with my wife, suddenly there was a sharp pain followed by blood discharge from my left ear. I was really shocked by this and wondered what exactly happened inside my ear. The pain continued until midnight until I can't bear it anymore, I went to the nearby clinic around 1245am. I asked the doctor to refer me to the A&E (Accident & Emergency) immediately but according to him the ENT will only available on Monday. So he released a memo to put my appointment ahead on Monday. Instead of Tan Tock Seng Hospital, I decided to go to Khoo Teck Puat Hospital. (Dunno why the name is very confusing) since its nearer to the place I stayed. (This cost me SGD 112) + A&E registration of SGD80.

So today, I was at KTP hospital. I requested for a senior consultant but since I didnt make any appointment, they assigned me to any doctor available. I ended up having this young associate consultant which I have doubt whether he knows what he is doing or not. As usual, he asked if I got any drug allergy or not,bla bla bla... then he clean up the waxes and blood. But he never said anything where the blood come from. He just mentioned that it was just an infection and put some antibiotic inside my ear.. He didn't even mention about my abnormal ear drum. I am questioning myself again n again... did he really knows what he is doing? I paid another SDG 100++ for this and being asked to come back in 2 weeks time for follow up checking.

I am not sure how long this problem will continue, but I am tired of seeking ENT for the same problem over and over again.... see what happen in 2 weeks time.

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Back To KL

I had just arrived at my second home in PJ. I checked on my car, which I had left for about 2 weeks. A bit dusty, but it seems fine. Got a big task for him tomorrow. After that, I arranged my stuff, and straight away go online. Here I am now, in front of my laptop, writing this post.

I look outside my window….. This is what I see (U see what I see).



I am a bit relieved since tomorrow is not a working day. I think I need to adapt before really going to work. I could not explain my feeling right now. It’s better to be at home. I turn on a music which reminds me my recent trip to Ranau.

What I gonna do now? Oh, I almost forgot that I haven’t completed my report yet. Fuck that report. I think I need to call my friend later. He is back from KK by today too. Probably we can exchange story. I think I still in a mood of celebration.

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The Weird

I got my 2008 bonus on the 26th day of December and my salary on the 29th Dec 2008. Why I am telling this? Because I got it AFTER Christmas, which means I had to withdraw extra money from my little saving, and had to spend money with uncertainty on whether I will get my expected amount of bonus or not. Of course you will spend money in anticipation of how much money will flow into your account, right?

Well, in my previous 2 years experience, the year end bonus shall be given between the 20th day to 22nd day of Dec. But I don’t really understand why this year’s was very different. I try to figure out the logic answer….. but without avail. So, I just let it go. It’s not a big question to think about by the way.

And at the time of writing, it’s already 31st Dec 2008, which is the last day of 2008. I have some plan for New Year. I am not sure whether I can make it or not. It’s just a plan anyway. When you have a plan, sometimes it depends on people to make it happen.

And as for today, I am no longer serving a bond with my company, as it last until 30th Dec 2008. Did I want to change job? Yes, I always want to change job, since the 2nd year working in my company. But, due to overreaction regarding the economy (apart from the serving bond), I should be more careful in planning my next move. I change my strategy to wait and see. Sigh, I hate thinking of going back to work.

And today, I received an email from The Company, which required me to undergo a training regarding something out of my job scope. I am not objecting this kind of training. But I hate it when I am required to teach people about what the training is all about, and probably will be asked to do one project, while my job description probably still remain the same. If you never practice the knowledge beforehand, how you gonna teach somebody about it? How you gonna make people understand and practice something that you yourself only have 2 days of theoretical knowledge?

But, I don’t know yet. We’ll see.

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I Concur

I sensed something, and through my sixth sense, it confirmed to be true. People change anyway, that’s why we need to be wise. Social life, improved. Get to know more people. Why? Have a better social life, replenishment and being secure. New opportunity came in today. Will explain more when the time is right.

The last 2 weeks, was an intense time for me. Calculating the risk and think on how to go about doing it. Sigh….. It’s difficult, but not impossible to do. Middle of December will shed some light, which will show some direction whether The 14 Jan Plan will happen or not. I just have to wait n see.

Hello everybody. I had abandoned my blog for such a long time. Not because I had nothing to say but, not in the mood of writing I guess. Yesterday my boss told us that retrenchment would not be a case in our company. Thanks to that. And he mentioned about this year bonus too.

From what I can understand, this year bonus will be slightly higher compare to last year as he was saying that it is the company policy to give in that manner. I am quite happy to hear that, but who knows? I don’t want to put too much hope, but hopefully it will become true.

And when it’s about 2 more weeks before I go back home, I start to feel that I am going to fall sick again. The very same sickness that I will have each time I go back to my hometown. This is very predictable and I don’t know how to explain this phenomenon. I hate being sick when it suppose the time to enjoy. I really hope this time, it will not make a ‘scene’. Some more, I have an important role to play this month. Please pray for me, as I started to take vit. C last Monday.

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Double Decker

I do not what wrongs with me. Yesterday around 5:30pm, I started to feel a strange sensation in my stomach. In addition to that I felt dizziness all over my head. Berpinar-pinar pandangan sia.

It became worse by the time I drove home. Luckily road was not jam during that time. Even so, only God understand how suffered I am along the way back. I vomited 4 times at the company. And 2 times when I was at home.

About 9:oopm, my friend sent me to the nearby clinic, because i cannot drive anymore due to dizziness. I got injected on the pantat. The stupid thing was the doctor did not close the curtain, until i asked him to. I don't wana people see my ass.

Ngilu. So I took mc the next day….. which is today. I think I got food poisoning at our company’s canteen. My friend said he got stomach ache also. Only not vomitting.

The vomiting and headache now already subsided, but not gone. I just stop my medication on flu, and now have to continue another medication on food poisoning, I guess. Sigh…..

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