The Selfishness.

In Singapore, train is the main transportation other than bus and taxi. Anyhow due to the high-dense population, it is very rare to find an empty seat inside the train unless you board at the first station. It happened to me yesterday, after done my work out in Chevron House I was thinking about how to get a seat since it takes about 45 minutes for me to reach my destination. I just feel too tired and I don't think I want to stand along the way.

So, I decided to go to the last station, which is just one station away so I can grab my seat first. I am so relieved when everybody alighted at the last station. There were so many seats to be chosen and I was thinking which seat to be taken. Usually the first seat which is nearer to the exit/entrance is reserved for the needy (the elderly, pregnant women, adults with kids etc). I was thinking that if I choose those seats, I will have to give them up to these  peoples when they come in. 

So, I chose the middle one which is further from the exit/entrance because for what so ever reason, I don't want to give up my seat. Anyhow, It is still a norm for the people here to give their seat if the reserved one is fully occupied, especially to the elderly. Due to this, I closed my eyes and listen to my music because I don't want to see anyone who potentially needs the seat and have the guilt of not giving my seat to them.

As expected, the train is really packed along the way but I got to sit for the whole journey. Am I being selfish here? :).... I believed so. I feel bad.... and to make myself feel better I came up with my own reasoning;

" Everyone is well aware of the situation here and should expect the least to get any seat while boarding the train"

I believe everybody can understand why they have to stand in the train and it requires some extra effort to get a seat... as an example, go the the first station and the journey is all yours. :) hehehe

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New Life in Singapore

It's been about 2 weeks since I arrived in Singapore. I just got my internet broadband yesterday, so I can start blogging again. After all life is not bad over here, at least for me.. I heard a lots of unpleasant things prior of leaving... i.e too strict, no freedom, cannot do this, cannot do that, cost of living very high etc....

I am not in exception, but as usual, I don't allow my judgment to be overshadowed by those remarks.... I used to think about the suffering I will have to endure  without my car, about have to get up early in the morning, about having to start over to build my network again and all those sort of "What If" questions which popping out of my mind most of the time.

It was not easy for me to make this decision, but as usual, I prayed. Thanks God, after about 2 weeks over here, everything seems to be alright.... work wise, well, ppl seems to be able to accept me even not all of them. You know, some people are mentally unstable, how good or friendly you trying to be, they just ignore you or pretend like you does not exist. But, that's just a small matter. Most important thing now is to find my footing.

Living cost? I would say it's cheaper compare to Malaysia if we compare dollar to dollar. In KL my average 1 day meal expenses like Breakfast -RM 2.5 (canteen food), Lunch - RM5-8(Including drinks) and dinner easily about RM6-8. So 1 day meals can reach up to RM16 - 18/day. But in Singapore, my breakfast is only $0.8 (Free tea and coffee).... my lunch and dinner hardly exceed $5 respectively (normal hawker shop).. so all in all its about $8-10.

What abt other things? I would say general items here are relatively cheaper. (Based on my experience) Energizer battery (2pcs) is $1.6 compare to RM 4, my favorite choclate is $4.5 compare to RM 8.3, KFC snake plate is $6.7 compare to RM9, shower cream is $4 compare to RM7 etc... There are lots more items which I found cheaper here..... Beer? believe me its only around $2.3/can (tiger  n carls)... Even with this price, they claimed it still expensive.

The only thing that I found quite expensive here is the accommodation. I am renting a common room at $700/mth for couple. Earlier I thought it was reasonable, anyhow many of  friends of mine told me otherwise. So, I am waiting until everything is stable first before making the next move. Some more, the environment is quite comfortable here. So will decide later on whether wana move out or not.

Transportation is very convenient and systematic. I thought I will feel isolated without my car ready at hand, but no... there are ample access to buses and trains as well. You can go almost everywhere as the transportation is well connected. You only need to know which bus to take. For MRT, its quite straight forward.

Lastly, I am getting my internet broadband at $27/month for 2.0Mbps speed. Do you know how much we have to pay for half of the speed in Malaysia? Its about 100 plusss.... The highest speed available here is 7.2 Mbps with monthly subscription of $41....cheap and affordable right?

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Men's Health 2010 Run Result (My result)

It was rainy evening. I woke up at 6.13 pm and rushed to shower. I did realized that I already late. Not to mentioned that I sent my running shirt to the laundry. After picked them up, we (Me n my roommate) left house around 7pm. Federal highway was slow moving. I took the emergency lane hoping that there were no police around. Some more it was raining.

Upon reaching the highway, I sped off up to 140km/hr (max). I am very proud of my kelisa .... its still doing a good job for me. Still young and kicking.. kekke ... So I arrived at Putrajaya around 740pm.... change everything inside the car and went straight to the starting point..... Luckily I managed to pee.

I felt good. Everything is nice as it wasn't raining in Putrajaya. As usual I put my music on... Once I passed the gantry point, I look at my watch... its 2-3 minutes pass 8pm.... So just assume I started at 8pm.... Route were smooth, sometimes a bit hilly... Scenery was great... I was astonished when I passed through the bridge. It was beautiful....

There were some point where I  felt tired, slight muscle cramp and pain di bawah perut. But thank God, it slowly disappear.  When I saw the distance marker (Another 3 km to go), I looked at my watch. It was 850pm. I remembered that it was what I trained myself for.... 20 minutes to complete 3km.. So, its a good estimate that in 20 minutes I will reach the finishing line. I try to run faster and faster....

Approximately 9.10 pm, I reached the finishing line. I got my cert without name printed on it. But, WHERE IS MY MEDAL??? I realized that even with 70 minutes to complete 12.3 Km, is not good enough to be on the Top 85. But never mind. This is my best time so far.... I am happy for it, even though I might not be able to maintain it in a long distance run.

THESE ARE WHAT I GOT

Pics are blur since my camera phone is not that good to capture picture during nite time.

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Moving again....

I finally tendered my resignation yesterday after weeks of thoughts and deep reflection and meditation.... haha... it was not that easy as much as it sound to be and it may not be pleasing and rationale to some ppl... but decision has to be made.

I will be going to Singapore by September as I received a job offer there. Now, I have started to look for a room somewhere nearby the company I am going to work to, and has shortlisted some of the potential owner. I will be going there somewhere in August to have a look and once finalized, I will be flying there right after returning from KK. 

It is a coincidence with my plan to go back to KK in August for I just realized that my passport is going to expire in Oct 2010. Renewal have to be done in KK if you want it immediately, otherwise you have to wait for weeks to do it here in Peninsular. I don't know what makes such difference, but that's what happening. I still remembered 5 years ago, when my company decided to send me to Japan for training, they have to send me back to KK just to get my passport done. Of course I am more than happy because I get a free ticket back to my lovely hometown.

All in all, I am looking forward for my new job, with a new company and environment. I don't know what to expect, but I want to be positive about everything :). We will know for sure in my next post 3-4 months from now.

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The Principle

  
I have number of principles. Principles that I believe I can hold onto. Principles that I talked with everyone especially with my friends and basically agreed on what it stand for or whatever reason it holds into. Anyhow, lately, I seem to walk away from one of it. It seems that I compromise on what I hold strong previously. I purposely loosening my grip on that matter, for some reasons that I see as an opportunity or chance of a lifetime that will make me regret if I don't take any appropriate action now.

So, between the principle of what is right for many people (and to some extent is right for me too), I decided to ignore anything about it, as I don't want any regret or guilt within myself to haunt me forever for not doing what is deemed to me as a right thing to do. Yes, I believe I should do what I think is the right thing to do, as I understand myself and my situation better than anyone else. So, I trust my own judgment, even if i did ask others' opinion along the way.

Making a big decision is not always an easy thing for me. Manoeuvring my own life sometime could be a mystery. It’s like going into a thick fog ahead as I do not know what will happen and what is in there.  Many question pop out of my mind. What if this happened... what if that happened and so on.... and I don’t really know the answer. The only reason that keeps me going is because I believe in God. I believe that things will never go wrong if I let him to take charge. And many times, it is not easy to simply put your faith like that. As a human, I still need some assurance; I still need to touch, to see, to get the result and etc...  to believe.

But if I don’t have faith, how do I want to keep moving?  I might just delayed things and leave myself strangled in confusion and hesitation.  In fact, I encountered this situation many times, especially when I reached the crossroads.

I know that my principle is right. It’s always right all the time, but it doesn’t mean that I have to stand by it all the time.  As a human, I think I should be more rational, and not to look things in 2 perspectives only. There are times in my life that either Yes or No is not gonna be an answer. There are times I should stay in the twilight area

I planned things out, but it doesn’t mean it will work that way.  I believe, God knows the best about it, and I believe that nobody is going to change my life for the better except me. So.... let’s rock and roll.... kekeekek

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My 28th Birthday

Before my birthday is over, I want to write something about it. Today, is my 28th Birthday...... Looking back at the past, many things have changed. I would say that I am on the right track about what I want to achieve and what I want to become. The latter is difficult to be defined, because only me can understand what it is all about.

Time flies really fast. It flies really fast until at some point, I didnt realized that somehow I was left out from the things that I suppose to accomplish according to my plan. Anyway, thanks to God, everything still go smoothly until now. Life is full of challenges, difficulties, crossroads, uncertainties etc. But we must not run from it, rather than embrace life as a gift from God. Life is not easy. I failed for many times. There were times when I feel like to quit..... but I believe, I should only rest & take a break, but must not quit.

God willing, 28 seems to be the last number of me being a bachelor. After that, I will be known as a married man. Some people say, its "GAME OVER". It could be true, but for me not 100% true.... Its more on how you as a couple fit each other. Of course there is no such thing as Mr Right or Ms Right....no such thing as u meant for me, and i meant for you... Its more on how compromise is being stressed in a life as a couple.

Personally, I am looking forward for my wedding day..... and I am looking forward to live with the person I have chosen. I have thousand reasons to choose my girlfriend as a love of my life :) (Jangan kau kembang sana)

I got a beautiful Birthday wish from my fiancee... this is what she said:

If we lit a bday candle 4 evry wise words u’ve spoken, evry caring deed u’ve done & evry single life u’ve touchd, the room wil b filld wit 'RAYdiant' glows..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my Fiance!

I wish u happiness & hope ur aspirations wil bcome reality.. N I want 2 b there 4 u. I love u so much! God bless u..

tell ...me what ribbon colour u like.. i'll tie it arnd me :p

 

Its simple, yet very meaningful for me. Its the best birthday wishes I ever had so far...... So, I framed it on my Blog....

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New Balance Pacesetters 15 KM Run

I woke up at 5:00 am today and get myself ready for the run. I was kinda lazy and thought like... "ahh what is this" as I had in in mind that this run will be easy for me. I even had a couple of beers the night before with my friend, Alex.

The event started sharp at 7.15 am for Men's Open Category. I ran with peace of mind, listening to my musics. Just about 20 minutes running, I started to feel pain all over my leg... I was thinking, what the heck with this!! Its just 20 minutes or 2-3KM away which I were not so sure and this is happening to me? I was then try to recall what had gone wrong.

I realized that first, I did not maintain my speed evenly. I had been going very fast from the starting point.... I remember how I started for the Penang Bridge Marathon which is very contrary to this. I tried slowing down by hope the pain will go away, but it won't. I came to realized then, that the route was hilly. Thing become the most difficult for me when running uphill. I cursed for many times. My leg pain was almost unbearable. I was thinking that I am going to fail. Can you imagine, how embarrasing is that? My arrogance was paid off! Kotoh!

I prayed to God, so that the pain will go away. Well, the pain was still there, until I almost fell to the ground as I did not watch my steps properly. I was shocked, peoples were looking at me, but I didn't hear whatever they said as I was on my MP3 and I didn't bother.... hahaha... When that happened, I felt my adrenaline 'rushing/flowing' all over my body and I became super alerted. I didn't realize that the pain suddenly gone. I smiled when I thought of my prayer earlier. "Ohh... thats the way You do it? Thanks by the way :)"... hahaha....

I continued running until the 8th KM.... I checked my watch and it was already 8:00 am. Gosh, 7 KM to go.... and by saying that, my route went uphill again.... There were times, when I just want to give up. I stopped, and thinking of walking only. But I remember, that by stopping will only make me weak and de-motivated. I forced myself to run....  and took a deep breath simultaneously.

I reached the finish line around 8:47 am... and I guess my unofficial time is 1 Hr 32 Mins.... we'll wait until the final list come out. I proceed to get my finisher medal, and straight away trying to cool down myself. I was not feel any excitement and joy as what I experienced in Penang before, but I was thankful to God because I managed to complete it within the qualifying time. Thanks God. :)

I am gonna check the Standard Chatered Marathon route after this. If they use the same hilly route as this, I am gonna back off and re-register myself only for the half-marathon category. I know I will never do it for hilly route.

I think, it is very important to buy one pouch to get my things intact. It was really troublesome to run while holding your key, and wondering your wallet, camera or handphone is safe inside your car.... Those of you who planned to to join such event like this, pls bring all necessary items together to sustain you during the whole run. You will get tired, you will have muscle pain, cramped etc... so bring some medication and hi-energy bars... haha...

Good luck and All the best!!

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2nd Day

Since I have some spare time to write, so I will be writing about my second day at work. I got my log on infor, which means I can access email & internet. Apart from that, I have the opportunity to study some of the work-related application, but I have not fully understand the principal behind. Its all about capacity planning.

My colleague brought me into the production and explained to me about the process flow. I kind of blurr a bit since this is totally new to me. Anyhow, since I got internet access, I managed to google some info regarding the processes, and thank God, I am able to understand some of the mechanism involved. Tomorrow will be a different day for me as I already know what I will be doing the whole day. I need to break the formula used in the template. I need to understand how it is derived and find any logical corelation of  the arrangement of data.

I am required to submit a report after 3 months. It is considered as my on the job training if I am not mistaken... so far I've found 2 sabahans working there. But, I seldom meet them because they are in different department. I found out that the food inside the canteen was not bad. Many choices and look delicious. But, it's too early to judge. My other colleagues think they are boring. So they chose to eat outside. As for me, I still prefer eating outside. Cheap and I can get more rest during lunch hour.

Today is my last free session with my personal trainer. I found out that he is good and experienced. I never feel so much pain for exercising before, but during the 1 hour session, I felt like all my bones are breaking.... kkekeke. But that is what exercising is all about right? No pain no gain. I didnt continue having a personal trainer as I cannot commit to the cost they charged. Its good to have one, but I guess I must depend on my own. Internet kan ada.

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The Crossroad

It was an intense time for me for the past 2 weeks. What happened in the past 2 weeks was a situation where I had to choose the next career path that I will have to go. It was so intense in the sense of choosing the best option and what I really wanted.

Everybody have their own way of thinking of what career advancement is all about. For me, I relate it much on money, job satisfaction and location. I am not and idealistic type of person. I am more interested on the value that I might get as a return. It may sounds self-centered or selfish for some people, but at least I know I never doubt about the quality of work I had done so far. Its give and take.

Making a choice was the hardest thing. I, for once thought that I had made my decision, but with just a slight swing on situation, I became unsure. I prayed hard. I asked God, why things turn out to be confusing? What does God want me to see or to learn? I didn't know the answer. But I have faith, that He will show me the right way, out of many crossroads.

In the time of uncertainty, I just walked on, following every logical move and avoiding from making any immediate decision. But thanks to God, starting from yesterday, I have decided on the pathway that I should choose. And I am very satisfied with my choice.

I still remember last time when I was just about to move to Penang, I questioned myself.... why must Penang? Out of many jobs interviews I had attended in KL and only one in Penang, why the one in Penang responded? I asked God what is His plan, and I dont know the answer until yesterday. Now everything seems to make sense for me.

I am very thankful to God for everything especially the precious lesson of a simple word "Have Faith". Senang saja mau cakap tuh 'Have Faith'.... tapi bila sampai situasi sebenar, susah juga ko mau ikut....

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New Year Resolution

I am sure everybody has one. I don't really set any resolution as I will just do whatever I wana do. Some more, my resolution tends to change in time. Anyhow, this coming year I want to declare 2 things that I would like to accomplish. I know it will  not be easy for me, and I don't know whether I can do it. But, if just saying it out doesn't do any harm... why not?? :)

First, I want to improve my Japanese language skill - without taking any class or teacher.

Second, I want to learn Photoshop so that I can edit my own picture according to my own need and kesukaan. Its quite troublesome if I have to depends on others and sometime the result is not like what I wanted.

So two is enough. We'll see how it going...... How about you?

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My Flip Flop

Even though I am a bit free, but I keep myself busy as I need to prepare to move out to Penang soon. I decided to move on Friday. Actually I am wondering about how many of my stuff I should bring together. Considering of a limited space of my car is one thing. Another and most importantly is, how big is my room size in Penang?

I talked about this with my friend to whom I will stay with, and he said the room is “small but not really small”. How small is small? I asked him to compare it with any room he knew during our old days in the university, but no concrete answer given. Well, I don’t blame him.

So yesterday, I decided to ask him to take a picture of that room in 4 different angles. I asked him how many tiles covered up the floor, so that I can estimate the room size and he did reply me the info, thanks to him once again.

Well, as an IE, doing layout is one of my job descriptions. So I try to apply this skill in deciding about the most conducive layout for my room, so I can have the most possible efficient layout in town. To my amazement, the room is real small!! Is this the room I am going to stay in?

Look at how many unutilized tiles left? FYI, one tile measured about 30cm square. So, I am pretty sure that my room is really small. I shouldn’t even think about what things I should or should not bring along.

Anyway, I remind myself to be simple. It’s good enough to have a friend to offer me a room to stay and it really avoid me a hassle to find a new room around. So, thank you Henry. One thing is, I am going to negotiate further so that the rent can be made lower than what we verbally agreed earlier. Hehehe…..

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My Last Day in PTM

Last Monday was my last day working in PTM. It had been a great day for me as i had wait for that moment for such a long time ago. Me and some other friends had farewell lunch together at Pizza Hut.

I did not managed to go around the factory to say good bye to everybody. I don't think it is necessary for my case..... or probably deep inside me believes that sending email will do.

So, I wrote a very simple email to everybody, which read like this:

Dear All,

Today will be my last day working in PTM.
I would like to thank to all of you, for everything; the support and guidance towards carrying out my job, and most importantly for being such a good friend all the time.

I am sorry if I ever hurt all of you in one way or another, and I hope the same thing from you too. No one enjoys saying goodbye, but sometimes it just happen for a reason.

Take a good care of yourselves, and till we meet again in future.

I felt a bit sad of leaving my close friends behind, and also upon leaving the company area. Anyhow, thanks God because at the same time, i embarked a new starts. My sceptical boss ever said to me "Dont' expect the grass to be greener outside"..... I am not sure what his purpose of saying that.... it might just the way his brain work.

Why should i be afraid of something i do not know or out of my control? Why i should let my fear keep me from moving and stay the way i am forever? Well, I cannot predict the future, but who else can?

Since i will be reporting to work on the 6th April, I am taking this ample time right now to relax, watch as much movie as i can, eat and sleep as much as i can, wash my car, and so forth. Tomorrow I want to go shopping. Need to buy 2 clothes since I almost forgot that the new company wear casual at work. I only have 3 t-shirts. Lets make it 5 so that 1 day i will have at least 1 t-shirt to wear.

Till then..... bye bye

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Myself

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Source: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

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